in the begining

Well, I've done it, I FINALLY started a blog (much to Karlyn's dismay, it's only taken me three years or so...) Honestly, I've kind of dreaded it, but since I hate journaling, I think in the long run, it will prove to be helpful to me (even if no one reads it!) Anyways, here's a quick glimpse of life at the moment:
I've been at my new job now since October 6th, and life as a new RN is not a piece of cake. I still feel like a student, and jump a little when I remember I have my own license (those reality checks are too much sometimes...). Anyways, I've found that there are definite seasons in my life when the Lord seems to hide the future and kind of cloud the present, and just asks me to trust. That's it. I have the choice to trust Him or not, and as simple as it sounds, it's so hard! Everyday I think about where I would rather be and miss my previous hospital jobs, but the Spirit reminds me that He is doing a new thing, and I have to be willing to trust and move forward in His strength and wisdom. I know there's abundant peace and joy if I would only let go of my fears and trust. Ahhh! Have you ever felt so completely incapable of doing what He's called you to do, and nothing about your circumstances seem to make sense...? All I hope is that I can glorify and please Him, but sometimes I wonder... Well, one thing is for certain, I'm learning more here than I could've ever imagined. After a year here, my techinical skills should me second to none! I'll let you know how my first shifts go!